lil monkey

I just found out, within the span of 4 days, that two of my friends have the possibility of having disabled children.  One of them is a friend from high school who is having twins and the other is a close friend here that had an emergency c-section at 37 weeks and her baby is in the NICU with underdeveloped lungs and heart.  My heart breaks for them because this is a feeling I wouldn't wish on anyone.  The girl from high school at least has some time to prepare before the birth, but at the same time, she has no idea what exactly will be wrong with her baby.  My other friend I am really trying to reach out to.  Having your child taken right after birth and not knowing if they will survive is one of the hardest things a parent will ever go through.  You feel so alone and desperate  You want everyone around you, but you want no one at the same time.  It as really hard for me because I really felt I had no one, even though i was constantly surrounded by people.  There as nobody around me that had experienced anything similar.  if she would let me, i would like to be that person for her.  Nobody should ever have to go through this. 

i have made it back to the world of LJ briefly.  My child is driving me bat shit crazy.  he is now two, with the cognitive abilities of a three year old in the body of a 9 month old.  he is FRUSTRATED FRUSTRATED OMGGGGG FRUSTRATED.  He screams an fusses almost non stop unless I a actively participating as his arms and legs, which, being my own person as well, is impossible.  I took him to the doctor today just to make sure everything was ok.  unfortunately it wasn't something that could be fixed with meds.  i can't handle this. 

I'm bolding those I have eaten:

1. Abalone
2. Absinthe (the kind you can buy in America)
3. Alligator
4. Baba Ghanoush
5. Bagel and Lox
6. Baklava
7. Barbecue Ribs
8. Bellini
9. Bird's Nest Soup
10. Biscuits and Gravy
11. Black Pudding
12. Black Truffle
13. Borscht
14. Calamari
15. Carp
16. Caviar
17. Cheese Fondue
18. Chicken and Waffles
19. Chicken Tikka Masala
20. Chile Relleno
21. Chitlins
22. Churros
23. Clam Chowder
24. Cognac
25. Crab Cakes
26. Crickets (really good in chocolate!!)
27. Currywurst
28. Dandelion Wine
29. Dulce De Leche
30. Durian
31. Eel
32. Eggs Benedict
33. Fish Tacos
34. Foie Gras
35. Fresh Spring Rolls
36. Fried Catfish
37. Fried Green Tomatoes
38. Fried Plantain
39. Frito Pie
40. Frogs’ Legs
41. Fugu
42. Funnel Cake
43. Gazpacho
44. Goat
45. Goat’s Milk
46. Goulash
47. Gumbo
48. Haggis
49. Head Cheese
50. Heirloom Tomatoes
51. Honeycomb
52. Hostess Fruit Pie
53. Huevos Rancheros
54. Jerk Chicken
55. Kangaroo
56. Key Lime Pie
57. Kobe Beef
58. Lassi (mango lassi's are the shit!!)
59. Lobster
60. Mimosa
61. MoonPie
62. Morel Mushrooms
63. Nettle Tea
64. Octopus
65. Oxtail Soup
66. Paella
67. Paneer
68. Pastrami on Rye
69. Pavlova
70. Phaal
71. Philly Cheese Steak
72. Pho
73. Pineapple and Cottage Cheese
74. Pistachio Ice Cream
75. Po’ Boy
76. Pocky
77. Polenta
78. Prickly Pear
79. Rabbit Stew
80. Raw Oysters
81. Root Beer Float
82. S’mores
83. Sauerkraut
84. Sea Urchin
85. Shark
86. Snail
87. Snake
88. Soft Shell Crab
89. Som Tam
90. Spaetzle
91. Spam
92. Squirrel
93. Steak Tartare
94. Sweet Potato Fries
95. Sweetbreads
96. Tom Yum
97. Umeboshi
98. Venison
99. Wasabi Peas
100. Zucchini Flowers

Wow, i've eaten a lot of these, although I have also been to a lot of different countries.

I did it, I completed pre-qualification for DIQ.  I submit my Director in Qualification commitment forms in four days.  Then I have four months to increase from ten unit members to 24 with a combined $18,000 in wholesale production (that's $36,000 retail), with a minimum of $4000 each month.  I'm just  a little nervous.  Just a little. 

It is 9pm on March 30th.  I now have 3 days to get 2 people active, or recruited and active.  I am tired.  Very, very tired.  I don't know if I have it in me to even DO DIQ after I qualify for starting it.  Once I GET the two active I then have four months to go from 10 to 23, with $4000 production minimum every month.  my brain is fried.  I am surprised I even know my name right now.  My only hope is that I do it quickly.  My goal is to do DIQ in 2 months.  Rip it off quickly cause man is it gonna hurt to do it, but it's gonna feel so much better once its done. 

two people.

I need two people.

and now my brain is mush once again. 

I don't usually answer these, but what the heck: i think it's funny they used a steelers picture when asking this question because we are totally sporting steelers colors even though they aren't in it this year.  Go Steelers!

This guy I used to be friends with used to know cause I was friends with his ex-wife when they were married, just got "respect" and "pride" tattooed on his arms really really big.  To say it mildly, this guy is an idiot.  Anyway, he says under the picture, "If more people lived by the true definition of these words, we would b a lot better off".  ok, respect I can understand.  We all need to give people a little more respect, but pride?  Ya, not so much.  So I decided to look up the definition of pride, thinking, "well, if this guy spent that much time and money to get something permanently written on himself, maybe he knows something I don't".  

Pride:
noun
.

I am making money at work, we are starting to be comfortable, Adin is starting to do more, and my house is clean. I'm feeling pretty good. We donated four huge bags of Adin's old clothes and toys to goodwill. We kept the really important things, like the really cute clothes and the toys he loved so we can use them when we have another child. We figure 1) he will be getting a SLEW of new toys this christmas, half of which he wont even use and 2) we will get more stuff from people when we do have another child. It feels really good to look around my house and NOT see a huge mess of crap. It actually looks like adults live here.

One of my neighbors across the street has these two little yappy annoying dogs. About 2-3 times a day he comes outside with them and, I am not joking, lets them run all over our street wild, without a leash. I have almost hit them about four times already. The other night I was on my way home from working, and had turned down our street, when I saw the little yellow one dart in front of my car. I slammed on my brakes and watched him pass in front of me,and I crept my car the rest of the way home, about two houses down. Today my next door neighbor came to me and told me that the guy who owns the dogs told him that I ran over the little black one and just went home after slamming on my brakes. I had absolutely no idea and I feel terrible about it. I cried for about two hours today when I first found out, and my neighbor went with me to apologize to him. The thing that really gets me mad though is that the guy had no idea that this was his fault. How am I supposed to know to watch out for his little black yorkie at 11pm. 1) the dog is BLACK 2) the dog darts EVERYWHERE 3) it was 11 at night! This was not my fault! This was him not properly caring for his dogs. Hopefully he will actually learn from this and not let his dogs run around in the street, but for some reason I highly doubt he will learn.

I am watching law and order and my old lab partners name was brought up. to go back, in 1995-1996 I was in a biology lab in high school and my lab partner was Samuel Sheinbein. He lived in my neighborhood, I used to go to his house to study. I even taught him how to cross stitch (because the class was so boring that I would being my sewing to class). After that year I still talked to him in the hallways when I saw him. Two years later, when he was a senior and I was a junior him and two of his friends killed this guy and then dismembered him with a chainsaw and attempted to cremate his body in Sheinbein's garage. They never found the guys arms and legs i think. Sheinbein fled to Israel with the help of his father who was an attorney who held dual citizenship in the United States and Israel. Once in Israel, Sheinbein applied for and received Israeli citizenship. He was put in an Israeli priso until 2013, so he should be getting out in two years. CRAZY!